4/23/17 MaeBright's Sermon 


March Vestry Minutes

Vestry Minutes:  March 21, 2017

Members Present: Sylvia Weston, Jules Bertaut, Lucas Sanders, Matthew Abbate, Andrew Rohm, Leah Giles, Marian King, Olivia Hamilton, Tom Tufts, Sarah Borgatti, Betsy Zeldin, Sarah Forrester, Sam Perlo-Freeman, Holly Antolini

Guest:   Jeff Zinsmeyer


●     Following a check-in time, Sylvia led a reflection about how God speaks to us through scripture as our Spiritual Practice

Vestry Retreat Debrief

●     We summarized the retreat, to remind ourselves of what we did, and to loop in Sam, who’d been away on business and unable to attend the retreat.

●     Jules gave a summary of the shared leadership concept.

●     Lucas suggested we work in pairs to keep in touch with various ministry areas.

●     Holly suggested she and Karen could help with identifying ministry leaders.

●     Jules suggested we could survey the congregation about what sort of vestry support would be helpful.  Jules and Andrew intend to work on this survey for hopeful vestry feedback next month.

AED/Emergency Equipment

●     Holly reported on a conversation she had with Anne Dwyer Wilmer, regarding the possibility of having an AED at church.

●     AEDs are expensive, but if you need one, you need one right away.

●     Olivia mentioned she’d received information about discount AEDs for churches.

●     Holly reported that Anne had also purchased and donated narcan (a medication that reverses the effects of opiates; it helps prevent overdose deaths) to the church.  Anne will provide training to ushers and others interested in how to administer it.

●     Lucas moved that the vestry commit to the necessity of an AED in the church, and empower a committee of Olivia Hamilton, Anne Wilmer, and Holly Antolini to select one that is the most appropriate.  Sam seconded.  Approved unanimously.


●        Marian moved that we enter executive session.  Sylvia seconded.  Approved unanimously.

●        Jeff Zinsmeyer presented a redevelopment update.

●        Olivia moved that we exit executive session.  Marian seconded.  Approved unanimously.

Furniture and Fitout Update

●     Sarah Forrester presented an update on how the furnishings and fitout committee is doing.

●     The “look” the committee is going for is a simple, durable, functional aesthetic.  They want something orderly and sturdy, but not “fancy,” i.e. something welcoming to all people.  They’re bringing in aspects of the sanctuary into the new space, like refinishing old pews to use as benches in the halls.

●     They have ideas for furnishings, but the building won’t be outfitted for another couple years, over which time lines may be discontinued, prices changed, etc., which makes it a bit hard to be exact about what they want.

●     We may need a small capital campaign in late 2018 to raise a few more tens of thousands of dollars to cover the cost of this furnishing.

●     The committee is also considering what sort of security system to have in the parish hall. 

Chart of Accounts

●     Lucas presented the new chart of accounts, for our new, more understandable budget.

●     The financials should be in this new structure for next year.



Minutes of February Meeting

●     Marian moved that we approve the regular and executive session January minutes, as amended.  Lucas seconded.  Approved unanimously.

Financial Report

●     Lucas presented the financial report.  Things are going well so far this year.

●     Pledge income is ahead of budget so far, probably due to people finishing paying off their 2016 pledges in January.

●     The finance committee is beginning to think about the revenue task force and other post-redevelopment things, but they don’t have any details yet.

●     The investment committee hopes to have a policy for our redevelopment funds and the endowments by next month.

●     Matthew moved that we accept the financial report.  Marian seconded.  Approved unanimously.

Warden’s Report

●     Sylvia reported that the boiler has been working all winter.

●     She has contacted the cleaners to do a cleaning for easter.

Rector’s Report



  • New Office Manager Karen Sargent finds our myriad details a challenge but continues with good will. Entering our operation in Lent is maxiumum stress for all concerned!
  • Vestry retreat lively and energizing. Our huge "map of ministry" inspiring and overwhelming. Now we see if we can make our "intentions" a reality.
  • Continuing to work with Eric on his plans to depart. "Succession meeting" and celebration of Eric's ministry with Church School Staff on the books for April 1st at Liz McNerney's. On Easter Sunday, the congregation will celebrate Eric's ministry and say "thanks" to Emily for her ministry and to Fiona and Myles. 
  • Life Together application well regarded, according to Kelsey Bodgan. Still awaiting firm acceptance of St. James as a site. 
  • The Food Pantry doubled its guests for Month Two of our parish-led experiment. Looking good!
  • The Anti-Oppression Team building coalitions and discerning co-chairs for St. James to join other congregations in providing "Level Two" support for "Level One" congregation. Still considering St. Mary's Dorchester, but closer to home, also United Lutheran in Harvard Square, who are available to house undocumented immigrants preparing a defense against deportation. The A-O Team meeting last Sunday included reps from Our Savior and St. John's Arlington, Christ Church Cambridge, and Good Shepherd Watertown. I made good connections with Reservoir Church on Rindge Ave as a possible collaborator and am resourcing the diocesan Immigrants 101 event the Bishops are holding at the Cathedral Sunday March 26th 4-8pm (though I cannot attend because of Practicing Episcopalians and the Stations of the Cross). 
  • VISIONS training-trainers planning to hold our first all-parish event introducing the Guidelines and "Cultural Sharing" on April 30th. 
  • Molly McHenry, Michelle Holmes, Yvette Verdieu, & Olivia Hamilton have a lively class addressing issues of race using Jesmyn Ward's "The Fire This Time."
  • My five-week Practicing the Episcopal Way class has six wonderful participants  - a rich sharing and theological exploration.
  • The weekly Sunday-evening meditation Daniel Berrigan's Stations of the Cross has been powerful. Small groups for Weeks One and Two, a huge group combined with Anti-Oppression Team for Week Three. 
  • Sarah Forrester is overseeing "Doller A Day for Lent to benefit her Missions Grants recipient group, Kenya Self-Help group. 
  • Worship planning team has put a terrific Holy Week together: Our usual Maundy Thursday Dinner, Footwashing, Eucharist and Altar-Stripping. We're designing our own "live" Stations for Good Friday evening and have half the Stations already claimed by different groups. We will have a big all-stations coordinating-and-planning event April 1st, 1-2:30pm, so that each team has practiced its Station in its space in the church. Then ALL will process through the Stations together on Good Friday Evening. Easter Vigil is once again blessed to have the Theodicy Jazz Collective on deck! And a possible adult baptism - we'll see!
  • Redevelopment,  and Furnishings-and-Fit-Out continues, of course!
  • No progress on the Organ Fund estimates, still awaiting Pat's work. 
  • Living Epistles ahead: Palm Sunday: Chaplain Lauren Rigsby, a Living Epistle on Trauma! May 21st, Anne Ipsen Goldman on spirituality and her call to environmental stewardship. 
  • Still awaiting the Finance Ministry's portion of the Parochial Report. Will request Karen S to enter the pastoral information after Easter; her hands are full with Holy Week bulletins. 
  • Parish retreat team is continuing its work. Roll-out date, Easter Sunday, April 16th! Teaming with St. Mary's Dorchester. Talking about doing and introduction to the VISIONS Communication Guidelines as one workshop on Retreat. 



  • Assisting Transitions Officer Jean Baptiste Ntagengwa is putting together the Bishops Gathering on Immigrant Rights for next Sunday, though I cannot attend. 
  • Participating as a panelist in EDS' gathering on April 5th on Congregation-based Anti-racism work. 
  • Serving one last year on the Clergy Conference Planning Committee (spring) and the Resolutions Committee (fall). Then I'll step down in favor of the opportunity for some younger clergy.
  • Continuing as a ROC (Recently Ordained Clergy) Mentor through Eric's last Sunday, April 16th, and the ROC Mentors' retreat in May. 




  • Appreciate Vestry's support for my health. "Supply" calendar for June 25th, July 2nd, July 9th, July 16th, July 30th, August 6th, August 13th & August 20th nearly filled. Planning to preach and to preside for St. James' day. July 23rd. Am also receiving another cortisone shot to my lower spine for continuing disc and arthritis issues - ever a management challenge, hence all the PT and swimming!
  • I continue my practice of monthly meetings with my Women Clergy Colleague Group, monthly spiritual direction, and participating in the Recently Ordained Clergy Mentoring Group quarterly. Keeps me grounded!
  • Continuing to work on a plan for my three-month sabbatical in 2018 - my tenth year with St. James. The building will be nearing completion - God willing! - and the congregation will have plenty to manage, preparing to move into it with a business plan for rentals, the culmination of furnishings-and fit-out, completing a possible limited capital campaign to tap the enthusiasm about our new chapter to make up the last $50,000 to furnish the parish hall as we hope. It won't be "down time" for the congregation!

Assistant Rector’s Report

●        The Church school classes continue to run nicely and teachers continue to do a wonderful job.  We’ve added some new teachers to the Godly Play class from among the parents and also a new parishioner.  

●     We have a Church school teacher meeting on April 1st to do some planning for the period starting Low Sunday through the end of the Church school year on Pentecost (June 4th).  

●     The parish retreat team gathered for our first information/strategy meeting on March 12th.  The team is off to a great start with Liz M. Anne R., John and Janet, Emillee B., and others.  We will be joined by folks from St. Mary’s Dorchester who we will be joining us for the retreat.  We are planning kicking off retreat registration on Easter Sunday.  The retreat team thought it might be helpful to have a vestry liaison to keep the vestry plugged into the planning process.        

●     The International Sunday/Epiphany youth Liturgy was a lot of fun.  The St. James’s youth and children did a great job participating in the service.  It was also a special  opportunity to hear Nkem and Marga offer readings in Yaruba and Spanish.     

●     The Shrove Tuesday pancake dinner was a blast.  We had a nice turnout and lots of pancakes were eaten!  We even burned palms and imposed ashes…it was after Sundown on Ash Wednesday eve☺       

●     The Pine Village pre-school had to cancel their multi-cultural pot luck on March 15th due to weather.  This was second cancelation due to weather. They are looking at reschedule dates in May.   

●     I am looking for someone to pass off the Outdoor Church sandwich ministry too.   It is a very rewarding ministry to work with and the time commitment is very manageable.  The commitment is making a few announcements at Church requesting sandwich makers and then collecting them all on the 4th Sunday of the month and bringing them down to Harvard Epworth UMC before 2:00 pm.  I would appreciate any suggestions of potential volunteers!

●     The Scouts are doing well, they are lined up to bring 10 scouts to the retreat! 

●     The Kids 4 Peace event was held at St. James’s on the afternoon of March 12th.  We were visited by Orthodox Jewish and Muslim teenagers.  These high school students were very warm and knowledgeable, they got to know our St. James’s youth, shared with them about Judaism and Islam including; sacred objects, high holiday observances, and some of the similarities and differences between the Abrahamic religions.

●     Emilee Butler and Gweii Strong-Allen attended the High School retreat up at the BHC camp and reported that they had a nice time.  Very happy they were able to attend this.  

●     Kids-4-Peace convention on April 2nd.

●     We are trying to get our 8th graders and 9th graders interested in the pre-confirmation retreat up at the BHC put on the by the diocese youth leadership academy.

●     St. J families are helping an organize one of the stations of the cross for good Friday and are leading the Maundy Thursday pot-luck dinner effort.      

●     Jules and I are exploring  a partnership with Christ Church Harvard Square to offer a class based on the Our Whole Lives curriculum for youth. 


Submitted by Jules Bertaut




The Rev. Eric Litman's Final Sermon - Easter Vigil, 4/15/17


The Rev. Holly Lyman Antolini's Sermon for 4/16/17 - Easter Sunday, year A

Sermon Audio

Easter Sunday Year A 4-16-17

©Holly Lyman Antolini

Lections: Jeremiah 31:1-6; Psalm 118:1-2, 14-24Colossians 3:1-4John 20:1-18

We who survive the sword find grace in the wilderness. You appear to us, O Lord, from far away, when we seek for rest. You told us, “I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you. Again I will build you, and you shall be built!” In this hope, O God, we will rejoice! AMEN!

Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth, for you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” Isn’t it this an odd message of hope for an odd faith, this word from the writer of the Letter to the Colossians? Every Easter that we read this, struggling to make sense of the scandal of Christ’s resurrection from the dead, I’m puzzled again: “My life is HIDDEN with Christ in God.”

Hidden. Something present, but unseen, unacknowledged, unnoticed. For anyone who ever played “hide-and-go-seek,” “hidden” suggests, peeking out, heart pounding with excitement, hoping both TO be discovered and NOT to be discovered.

Why talk on Easter morning about “hiddenness???” We’re talking about RESURRECTION, people! Hard to hide big old stones rolled away and soldiers stunned like dead men! Hard to hide a dead body escaping its wrappings and rising to a new life! It’s preposterous enough to make it big on YouTube, to get tweeted by a president!  HIDDEN?!?

Of course, there’s also the story from John’s Gospel, the story of Mary, the “Apostle to the Apostles,” as she was called by the early Church, yet here, stumped by the relocated stone, the gaping tomb, the angels, the absent corpse of her beloved Jesus, whom she had been supporting ever since he came to Capernaum, the town next to Magdala, her own home town. Despite all those years of proximity to Jesus, his risen identity is hidden from her when he first appears to her, and she mistakes him for the gardener.

So I’ve been thinking about the hiddenness of resurrection. I’ve been thinking about how resurrection can be right here, in front of our eyes, and we can fail to perceive it.

Of course, we have a gift in our practice of the Way of Jesus in this complex old Episcopal Church: every year, we spend a LOT of time in the dark before we get to the light of Easter! It’s a darkness we cultivate starting in the last short days of winter when Lent begins, pursuing a whole season of 40 days, reflecting on the ways our ways have parted from the Way of Jesus over the previous year. Then we put the darkness front and center on Palm & Passion Sunday, rehearsing the whole drama of Jesus’ suffering, not sparing one perfidious detail. And if that weren’t enough, we then plunge into the Holy Triduum, three consecutive days of nighttime worship services that again and again return to Christ’s sacrifice for us, first in the meal and footwashing and “Last Supper” remembrance of Maundy Thursday, which ends in a barren sanctuary in the dark. Then, on Good Friday, it continues, this year with a congregationally-created and congregationally-led Stations of the Cross that fearlessly probed both our personal and our systemic separation from God's loving intention, freighted on chanted “Kyries,” “Lord have mercy!” And finally we found ourselves in the darkness of Holy Saturday, outside our great West Door, bearing kindling to represent all the loss of the last year, ready to toss them into a new fire and light from that fire the Paschal Candle, the great Christ Light, from which our own small candles would fan out across the church, a small hiddenness of light freighting promise into the great dark of our seemingly endless shame & fear & frustration & failure to realize God’s great dream of shalom, of wholeness and peace.

Because we don’t shy away from the darkness that is the crucible of resurrection – just as the empty tomb’s shadows are the crucible of Jesus’ risen life – we also can appreciate the sacramental nature of Christ’s presence with us, hidden, as our lives are “hidden” in Christ; hidden and present even when things seem utterly hopeless. A “sacrament,” says our Catechism in the back of the Book of Common Prayer, is “an outward and visible manifestation of an inward and spiritual grace,” and we Episcopalian followers of Jesus have a potent appreciation for the ways in which that inward grace can flare forth most unexpectedly in places where we haven’t just forgotten to look, but where we sometimes seem DETERMINED NOT TO SEE. For us, the entire Creation, made by God to be “good,” is a potential sacrament, and Christ can, “at all times and in all places,” be made manifest to us. So we live a life in which the hiddenness of God – the mystical, unseen presence of God – is a given, and our practice of faith means learning to keep our eyes peeled. We live a life in which we learn to expect the most unexpected in those we may have dismissed, whose lives, too, are “hidden with Christ in God.

Take 94-year-old inventor Mr. John Greenough.  In the energy crisis of the 1970’s, he became concerned about the need to condense power into tiny packages, and that led him, in 1980, at the age of 57, to imagine the lithium-ion battery that even now powers your laptop & your iPhone and even electric cars. His profiler Pagan Kennedy pointed out in the New York Times last week that we tend to think that technological creativity is the property of the young, whose resilient brain cells and open-minded naiveté combine to enable innovative thinking.

But when Kennedy asked Greenough “about his late-life success, he said: ‘Some of us are turtles; we crawl and struggle along, and we haven’t maybe figured it out by the time we’re 30. But the turtles have to keep on walking.’ This crawl through life can be advantageous, he pointed out, particularly if you meander around through different fields, picking up clues as you go along. Dr. Goodenough started in physics and hopped sideways into chemistry and materials science, while also keeping his eye on the social and political trends that could drive a green economy. “You have to draw on a fair amount of experience in order to be able to put ideas together,” he said.”

So NOW what has he “crawled up to,” in 2017? “He and his team at the University of Texas at Austin” which includes “Maria Helena Braga, a Portuguese physicist who, with the help of a colleague, had created a kind of glass that can replace liquid electrolytes inside batteries,” and whom Mr. Greenough recruited two years ago to work on his latest brainchild, have “filed a patent application on a new kind of battery that, if it works as promised, would be so cheap, lightweight and safe that it would revolutionize electric cars and kill off petroleum-fueled vehicles.”

No, you say. That’s stumped everyone for a generation. No can do. But then, Mr. Greenough has done the impossible once already. So why not again, at 94? “I’m old enough to know you can’t close your mind to new ideas,” he says, “You have to test out every possibility if you want something new.”

And besides, his life is “hidden with Christ in God.” So he attests himself: “He… credits his faith for keeping him focused on his mission to defeat pollution and ditch petroleum. On the wall of his lab, a tapestry of the Last Supper depicts the apostles in fervent conversation, like scientists at a conference arguing over a controversial theory. The tapestry reminds him of the divine power that fuels his mind. ‘I’m grateful for the doors that have been opened to me in different periods of my life,’ he said. He believes the glass battery was just another example of the happy accidents that have come his way: ‘At just the right moment, when I was looking for something, it walked in the door.’”

So much for missing what’s right in front of our eyes. Look around you: there are 80- and 90-somethings in THIS congregation whose lives are likewise hidden in God, and Christ is hidden in them. What might burst forth from you, our elders, if we had eyes to see? There are people of color, there are non-gender-conforming people in this congregation: you, too, have long grown painfully accustomed to having the Christ in you also hidden from people staring right at you, yet failing to notice him in his loving power, looking out from your eyes! And let’s face it: we miss even in OURSELVES our OWN sacramental potential – the risen life begging to burst forth from the tombs in which we have wrapped and stuffed it, out of fear and despair, and yes, prejudice. []

My colleague Regina Walton wrote a poem, “O Clavis David,” “O Key of David,” in her collection called The Yearning Life,” about the risen Christ’s “harrowing of hell.” The harrowing of hell is an image lively in our tradition from the first centuries of our faith, an image that comes from a line in our earliest creed, The Apostle’s Creed. Every time we baptize someone, as we did Xiaoying Zhou last night in the Easter Vigil, and every time we renew our own baptismal covenant, as we will in a moment, affirming in those ancient words, “I believe in Jesus Christ, God’s only Son, our Lord… He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, & was buried. He descended to the dead. On the third day he rose again…”


He descended to the dead. So what is Christ doing, hidden away down there among the dead, his risenness still unfamiliar even to him, before the dawn comes and he appears to Mary like the gardener? Here’s how Regina imagines him, using the old Hebrew word for hell, “Sheol.


After the blade drained his side
And his body was unhooked from the Cross
And swaddled again and laid back in the cave,
Our Lord turned himself into a key.

Like a harrow broke up the earth,
And himself unlocked the door to Sheol.
He grabbed those ancient hands,
The first ever to clasp, to caress, to strike,
And by the wrists he pulled them out…

Then she closes,

Those who believe, believe God sees in the dark.
Come Key of David: come harrowing and unbinding—
Rout out from the hidden, traceless places
Every truth entombed

[from “O Clavis David,” in This Yearning Life, by the Rev. Dr. Regina Walton]

So, if you long to participate in Christ’s risen life; if you long to rout out from the hidden places ALL the truth, including the truth of your own possibility, and OUR possibility as a church, a people, a world; if you long finally to step, blinking and confused, out of the darkness into the light of God’s eternal, unvarying and ever-proffered love, “Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth, for you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” AMEN.


The Rev. Holly Lyman Antolini's Sermon - 4/14, Good Friday Solemn Collects

Sermon Audio

Good Friday Noon Service 4-14-17

©Holly Lyman Antolini

Lections: Isaiah 52:13 – 53:12, Ps. 22; Hebrews 10:16-25; John 18:1-19:42

He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. By a perversion of justice he was taken away. Who could have imagined his future? …Yet out of his anguish he shall see light; he shall find satisfaction through his knowledge…for he poured out himself to death, and was numbered with the transgressors; yet he bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.  AMEN. [Isaiah 53:7-8, 11a, 12b]

This Holy Week has been a week of many words, as our weeks have been teemingly many-worded for years now, tweets abounding and Facebook pouring forth – I among them! – and pundits propounding and politicians spinning and companies rebranding. Amid the torrent of words – spoken and misspoken – this week was a word from White House Press Secretary Sean Spicer, a word weirdly and disturbingly apt in a week in which the Jewish Passover and the Christian Holy Week overlap exactly, a week in which we read the Passion of Jesus Christ according to the Evangelist John, who was a writer of immense spiritual power who considered Christ himself a divine “Word,” but who was also a writer of stark anti-Semitism, hammering at “the Jews… the Jews… the Jews” as the “bad guys” in a damaging rhetoric that has had enduringly destructive power for millennia since, as Christians have over and over again persecuted Jews as “Christ killers,” in the very act of which such pogroms they have amply proven themselves wrong, since in killing their neighbor Jews, the Christians themselves were “killing Christ,” who is always present in every human being.

Mr. Spicer, attempting to defend “the use of an American missile strike on Syria by lending gravity to the actions of [Syrian president Bashar al-]Assad, accused by American officials of using sarin gas, a lethal chemical weapon, in an attack on a rebel-held area of Idlib Province last week that killed dozens [of his own innocent citizens], many of them children.” Spicer “suggested that President… Assad… was guilty of acts worse than Hitler and asserted that Hitler had not used chemical weapons, ignoring the use of gas chambers at [Nazi] concentration camps” to euthanize millions of Jewish men, women & children “during the Holocaust… ’We didn’t use chemical weapons in World War II,’ Mr. Spicer said. ‘You know, you had someone as despicable as Hitler who didn’t even sink to using chemical weapons’” Thus Spicer misconstrued “the facts of the Holocaust — Nazi Germany’s brutally efficient, carefully orchestrated extermination of six million Jews and others…” []

The only benefit, if benefit it was, of Mr. Spicer’s appalling misrepresentation is that it brought to mind my visit, back in the 1980’s on a choir tour of Southern Germany and Austria, to the concentration camp of Mauthausen, in the outskirts of Vienna. In the basements under the block-like brick buildings of the camp were the gas chambers made to look like showers, into which Jewish people had been herded and then killed wholesale. All around Mauthausen, yet and still today, are the tidy brick suburbs of that cosmopolitan city, the upper floors of the surrounding houses peeking over the concentration-camp walls as if demurely supervising the goings-on in that nightmare place. I stood in the shadows of those echoing gas chambers-full of ghosts, thinking of the suburban families above, shepherding their children to school and Hitler Youth meetings, tending their gardens, washing dishes at their sinks and tucking their children into bed, gazing out upon the destruction – surely audible if not odoriferous – taking place next door. And I wept. Because I was terrified that I, like those neighbors, might too have been silent in the face of such atrocity so banally carried out.

And I wept because I know something of the silence – “like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent,” says the prophet Isaiah – of those being persecuted in that concentration camp, like so many then in the era of the Nazi domination and so many now, in places like northern Burma among the Rohingya, or northern Nigeria, under the reign of terror of Boko Haram, or North Korea under the regime of Kim Jong Un. And now, right here in these United States, in places where young African-American men are arrested and falsely accused and imprisoned and all too often even executed, as Bryan Stevenson documents in his book Just Mercy, which tells the stories that pile up at his non-profit law firm, the Equal Justice Initiative, stories of young people of color growing up in the affliction of poverty who then find themselves on the brunt end of “The Law,” a criminal justice system which, no matter how vaunted our ideals of justice may be, is rife with systemic racial injustice and staffed by human beings who exhibit racist and self-serving tendencies that effectively corrupt our justice just as justice was being corrupted in the courts of Caiaphas the High Priest and Pontius Pilate in the 1st century in Jerusalem. Now, as then, the powerless, even if they try to speak, go unheard.

And Jesus, before his accusers, is often himself silent. Because speech would avail him nothing.

This is the silence of oppression, the silence because no one cares, no one is listening. It is the silence in the documentary movie “I Am Not Your Negro,” the movie using writer James Baldwin’s words, together with images from the civil rights era in the 1950’s and ‘60’s, and from the “Black Lives Matter” era of today, the silence of the unresisting African-American demonstrator in the raincoat, being pushed & shoved by a shouting crowd of white people, their mouths gaping open in accusatory hatred like a Hieronymous Bosch painting of the damned.

We can experience this dread silence even if we are not under arrest or being pursued by a mob. We can experience it when we are surrounded by the self-serving dynamics of addiction, and speaking only garners attack, physical or verbal. We can experience it when we are abused, taken gross physical advantage of, and are powerless to resist. We can experience it because we have been deeply, perniciously neglected and overlooked, our dignity unacknowledged. We can experience this silence – and we DO experience it, over and over in a frighteningly, relentlessly formative dynamic – when we live as members of an oppressed group, targeted for misuse by our gender orientation or the hallmarks of our religion or the color of our skin.

This silence is like a precursor – indeed, a harbinger – of death.

Jesus knows what this dank and terrible silence is like. He knows what it is to be, literally or figuratively, “struck dumb.” This is the scandal of the Crucifixionand its consolation: THIS IS OUR GOD, joined to us when we are powerless, standing with us whenever we are forced into silence.

But there IS another silence, and this other silence is available to us even in amid the horror of that death-like silence of persecution. This other silence is the silence of lovethe silence that needs no words, that is indeed beyond words. This silence knows no bounds. This is the silence we find in complete shalom, complete peace, a mysterious – a mystical – silence in which all sin – all persecution, all separation – is done away. It is the silence of utter at-one-ment with God.

This other silence Jesus also knew. He surely knew it in the midst of his arrest, his trial, his torture, knew it even in the midst of the crucifixion itself. This is the deepest possible silence of the spheres, the silence of utter compassion, utter fellow-feeling, utter trust.

Poetry,” writes Fr. Martin Smith, “can lead us to the place of wonder, but it patrols the shoreline of what can be said, only making us more aware of the ocean of the unsayable. The poetry inspired by the passion [the suffering of Jesus Christ] always takes us to the edge of silence…” This is the silence of our souls in the face of Jesus’ death, his entombment, his own limitless compassion for and solidarity with us mirrored in the compassion of Joseph of Arimethea and Nicodemus, tenderly anointing his dead body and wrapping him and laying him in Joseph’s own tomb. Welsh mystic poet Ann Griffiths cries out on that poetic shoreline of silence, “O my soul, behold the place where lay the chief of kings, the author of peace, all creation moving in him, and he lying dead in the tomb; song and life of the lost…” [Love Set Free: Meditations on the Passion According to St. John, by Martin L. Smith, SSJE]

Martin Smith, who worked for the Holocaust Museum in Washington D.C. after leaving the monastery of the Society of St. John Evangelist here in Cambridge, spending two years surrounded by the mute photographs and artifacts of the Nazi genocide, also wrote in a meditation offered in the Diocese of Virginia some years ago, “My walk had brought me back past the Holocaust Museum, and I glanced up at my old office there, and thought about a letter Ignatius, bishop of Antioch [in the first century, only decades after Christ’s crucifixion], wrote to the church in Ephesus, en route under armed guard to his inevitable martyrdom in Rome. Advising the laity about their relationship to their …bishop, [Ignatius] wrote, ‘Pay special attention to the bishop when he is silent.’ Here,” wrote Smith, “was a leader who kept the mystical core of his faith intact, who continued to be in awe of the profound mystery of God, and the way the crucified Christ brings us through his vulnerability into personal intimacy with that mystery. There’s nothing sentimental about that intimacy, and holy silence is our protection against glib religiosity. A visit to the Holocaust Museum, [Smith reminds us], induces the kind of silence Ignatius wanted to see a bishop practice.

This is not just a word about bishops. It is a word for us this Good Friday as well. In the terrible face of Christ’s crucifixion, in the knowledge that we continue to persecute – or at least, like those suburban Austrians around Mauthausen, to TOLERATE the persecution – of vulnerable people, that we continue to participate in the dynamics of sin and separation, the dread spring from which welled the hatred that killed Christ, we ALL must “maintain in prayer [our] own intimate connection with the mystery of God. [We] who pray don’t pretend to have answers to everything, [but] foster our humility” for the “ hard times ahead.” [Martin Smith, an essay for the Bishop Suffragan search in the Episcopal Diocese of Virginia, September 2011,, page 5] 

We, who take the dread silence of the Crucifixion and the Death of God to heart, who know how inadequate our own words – not just those of Sean Spicer – can be, must seek and find the root of divine silence in the source of divine love, God’s own, sacrificial Self. AMEN.


4/2/17 The Rev. Reed Carlson's sermon for 5 Lent


A Sermon Preached at St. James’s Episcopal Church, Cambridge, MA on the Fifth Sunday in Lent (Year A), April 2, 2017

Ezekiel 37:1-14 | Psalm 130 | Romans 8:6-11 | John 11:1-45

By Reed Carlson

Recently my wife and I returned from a ten day trip to Israel and Palestine. It’s a trip we have wanted to take together since we were married and we finally had the opportunity to go a few weeks ago. On one of our days in Jerusalem we decided to walk up the Mount of Olives. If you are unfamiliar with the geography, the Mount of Olives is a steep hill located to the east of the Old City of Jerusalem. At the top there is a beautiful view of the city, including the temple mount. The Mount of Olives is the site of a number of familiar episodes from the Bible and especially from the Gospels. For example, at the foot of the Mount of Olives is the garden of Gethsemane where Jesus was betrayed. And it was somewhere on or near the Mount of Olives where the ascension took place. The Mount of Olives is also the route that Jesus would have taken when he travelled between Jerusalem and Bethany where Mary, Martha, and Lazarus lived—the friends of Jesus who appear in the Gospel story today.


This part of Jerusalem, like many parts of the city, is inundated with Jewish, Christian, and Muslim holy sites. It’s full of tourists and pilgrims as well as a handful of people who—you know—actually live there. But the largest and most overwhelming feature is undoubtedly a massive Jewish cemetery containing tens of thousands of graves—all of them resting on a hill facing Jerusalem and the temple mount. A Jewish tradition based on an interpretation of Zechariah 14 holds that it is on this mount where the resurrection will take place first. So every time that I have visited there, I can’t help but visualize what it might be like looking out over that valley and suddenly seeing 70,000 of these white stone graves opening and people walking out of them. Certainly Ezekiel’s vision of the valley of dry bones comes to mind. Now in Jesus’ day, this slope of the Mount of Olives was not the Necropolis that it is today, but still there would have been many graves. In fact people have been buried on the Mount of Olives for thousands of years. We don’t know exactly how old that Jewish tradition is of this mountain being the beginning of the resurrection… but regardless, it is interesting for me to think about it, when I hear Martha in our gospel reading this morning talking about the day of resurrection, since she lives just over the hill from where it could all begin. 


You may have noticed that our readings this morning are all centered around the theme of resurrection—not Jesus’ resurrection which we celebrate in a few weeks, but our own. This is a very ancient conviction shared by Christians and Jews alike that some day the messiah will come (or for Christians, return) and God’s people who are dead will rise again in their bodies. Now two thousand years of tradition has complicated how this has been understood. Interaction with Greek and Roman philosophy, spirit and body dualism, and even non-Christian, European folklore has kind of shaped our imaginations about what resurrection means. But that basic idea, that God’s people die and rise again in their bodies has remained foundational in both Judaism and Christianity.


This morning I would like to share with you just two short observations on how the story from the Gospel of John that we just heard frames this idea of resurrection. My first observation is that in this story, as in life, loss is unavoidable. Some of Jesus’ closest friends and most loyal followers—Martha, Mary, and Lazarus—they don’t even get to escape it.  When Jesus does come to Bethany, Mary and Martha both remark, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” And we know from other Gospel stories that they are right. Jesus does indeed have the power to heal—even from the brink of death. And yet healing, even miraculous healing, cannot hold off death forever. Lazarus’ death, just like our own, comes eventually.


Now, the words of these sisters, they sound kind of accusatory. And depending on your sensibilities, you might think Mary and Martha are being kind of rude or sacrilegious or something. But when we go through scripture and we read the Psalms of lament, or Job’s  defense in his suffering, we see that reminding God of our pain...or angrily pointing out the injustice of loss and refusing an easy answer is just about the most biblical thing a person can do—particularly in grief. It’s for that reason, I think, that Jesus’ responds to these sisters with such love and compassion. First, Martha speaks about the future resurrection, that idea that I was just telling you about, so Jesus does too. He gives her comfort that the messiah, himself, has come and so she can have reassurance that her faith will give her strength. But Mary isn’t quite there. She can’t follow up her lament with a statement of faith (like Mary did),  instead she just weeps because her brother is dead,  and Jesus doesn’t try to justify it to her. Instead, scripture says, “he was greatly disturbed in spirit and deeply moved.”  He goes to the grave and he weeps with her.


This brings me to my second observation about this story: Even though loss is unavoidable, there is life on the other side of death. When Jesus tells Lazarus to come out of that tomb, he is coming out on the other side of death. The good news is not that we avoid death, but that death is not the end of our story. This is apparent even in the way that John frames our reading today. In the chapter before this one, Jesus is nearly stoned to death in Jerusalem, less than two miles from Bethany, forcing him and his disciples to retreat to the other side of the Jordan river. That’s why at the beginning of our Gospel today, there is this conversation between Jesus and his disciples about whether or not they should really go back, because it’s dangerous to be so close to Jerusalem. What Jesus knows and his disciples only suspect is that by returning to Bethany and raising Lazarus from the death, he is guaranteeing his own death. And sure enough, right where our reading ends this morning, Jesus’ enemies begin to plot his execution. What John wants us to understand is that Lazarus’ death and resurrection is accomplished through Jesus’ own sacrifice. It is a hint not only of Easter but of the future of anyone who trusts that Jesus is the resurrection and the life.


This hope that we have, that there is life on the other side of death, is not just a way of understanding our mortality, it is also a way of understanding Jesus’ call to discipleship. Following the way of Jesus is not a guarantee that when you do the right thing, you avoid loss and suffering in your life. Rather it is a promise that when we are living out what God has called us to, our pain and our sacrifices are not meaningless. That there is, in fact, life on the other side. This is a practice that many Christians embody as a ritual during Lent, as we deny something from ourselves and look forward to the new life that is Easter. It’s also a truth that many people in our community and around the world experience when they take a stand for what \ is right, even though they know it will cost them. In these last few minutes, I invite you to reflect on your own life and to ask yourself, in what ways have you experienced life on the other side of death? You might also consider having a quiet moment with the Holy Spirit right there in your seat and meditating on how God might be calling you to endure or perhaps take a step of faith, trusting in that power of resurrection. 


4/9/17 Palm Sunday - Chaplain Lauren Risby's Living Epistle on Trauma

Living Epistle 

Lauren Rigsby

Living Epistle on Trauma

Palm Sunday, April 9, 2017


Grace and peace to you in the midst of a world that is beautiful and loving at the same time it is full of real limitations, suffering, losses, and trauma. In case we have not met, I am Lauren Rigsby, I’m a hospital chaplain at Lowell General Hospital, and I’m going to talk for just a few minutes about trauma and trauma recovery, and where it might fit in our theologies and healing work as a church. Please be warned that I will name general types of trauma in the next couple of minutes without going into any detail, and then after that I’ll give a brief example about seeing a gun fire....


We live with both sublime goodness and deep tragedy. All of creation - including myself and each of you - all of creation was made well. We contain sparks of holiness and the breath of the divine. We are called beloved by our God. Into the midst of this goodness I name the reality of suffering, of trauma. 1 in 5 women and 1 in 7 men are raped in their lifetime. 78% of transgender kids report harassment in K-12 education. 21% of young adults in foster care are diagnosed with PTSD. More than 60% of kids under the age of 17 experienced a traumatic event in the last year alone. On average, 78 natural disasters occurred every year in the US in the 1970’s; this number grew to 351 natural disasters per year during the first decade of the 2000’s. 26% of combat veterans treated at the VA between 2004-2009 were diagnosed with PTSD. I’m sharing a litany of statistics because many of us live with intimate exposure to sexual trauma, war and violence, assault, abuse, bullying, neglect, disaster both natural and human made, complicated grief and separation, historical and social traumas like slavery, forced displacement, system-induced trauma, medical crises, and spiritual traumas. Many caregivers or people in helping professions also experience a cumulative process in which their fundamental beliefs about the world are altered and maybe damaged by being repeatedly exposed to traumatic material.


Judith Herman names that: "The ordinary response to atrocities is to banish them from consciousness... Atrocities, however, refuse to be buried." Trauma shows up in our bodies - it disrupts and creates physical stress. Often when exposed to a traumatic event, we physically experience a hormone wash that kicks fight or flight or freeze into gear. Heart rate spikes to send blood to muscles and away from places like our hands, feet, and stomach. Mouth dries out, time slows down, and we become hyper aware. Talking to people who have lived through a shooting often say that they remember seeing the moment the bullet left the gun in slow motion.


One of the ways our bodies’ self-preservation system breaks down happens when our action is to no avail, and we are powerless to change the situation for the better. (You can imagine how someone who works in the emergency room might feel when they’ve been trying to resuscitate a person for 45 minutes and they are powerless to bring them back.) It is of course, normal to be especially shaken by a traumatic experience for a couple weeks after, for your thoughts to just drift back during a quiet moment. We usually jump between feeling numb, maybe not even remembering what happened, and being overwhelmed by memories or expecting we’ll be in danger again. Nightmares, stomach aches, headaches, irritability, being exhausted yet not being able to sleep or sleeping the days and nights away, avoiding making decisions, self-medicating with alcohol, drugs, and food, flashbacks: all of these are common for the first few weeks and then ideally taper down. Some amount of stress can be generative and motivating. Some creates distress that keeps us numb or reliving the traumatic event. Some stress creates dysfunction that jams our ability to keep up with everyday living and responsibilities. (And if you’ve been feeling jammed up in this way for a few weeks, I encourage you to reach out because there are ways to get out of this cycle - to take the sting out of what happened and get a handle on all the anxiety it creates.)


‘Remembering and telling the truth about terrible events are prerequisites for the restoration of relationships, the reconciliation of our communities, and for our own internal healing.’ There are several traditional psychodynamic treatments that work in various ways, and I am not a specialist in them. I am mostly trained to recognize, debrief the story, do stress management, and make referrals. But broadly speaking, we need three major things to recover from a trauma. First we need to establish safety - we need to be removed from danger and then breathe and physically release some of the stress hormones from our bodies. The second and third go together. We need to reconstruct the story and reconnect community. Trauma is isolating and our brains often have a disorganized, panicky sense of what happened. It is necessary to tell the vulnerable and awful truth to put together the narrative arc of what actually happened out of the flashes and snippets that stand out. By telling our stories to our loved ones we are reconnecting and allowing them the opportunity to know us and to work with us for change. Lastly, we can be good stewards of our own traumas through daily self care and awareness of what I’m like when my stress levels are in the green, what I do when I’m in the yellow, and what warns me and my loved ones that I’m in the red… (we can talk more about these strategies after the service, if you’d like to stay and talk.)


I appreciate the opportunity to talk about trauma at church because it is into the human reality of traumas and tragedies that God became incarnate, and it is through the ups and downs of this messy life that we believe Christ lived. Through the patterns of our liturgical calendar and moving through Holy Week every year: we can take comfort and solace in the compassion of a God who lives and breathes, experiences suffering, died, rose as one of us. A God who stands beside us and accompanies us through not only the best that this life has to offer, but also the worst experiences. The beauty of a church that honors the bleak tragedy of Christ’s worst days and painful death is that we don’t shy away from naming the tragedies of today - at our best we are a safe place to tell the difficult truth, we work with the winds of the Holy Spirit for reconciliation, for comfort, for healing, and to create the change that nourishes the flourishing of creation, and we always live in hope for resurrection.



The Rev. Holly Lyman Antolini's sermon for 4 Lent, 3/26/17


February Vestry Minutes

Vestry Minutes:  February 21, 2017

Members Present: Sylvia Weston, Jules Bertaut, Lucas Sanders, Matthew Abbate, Andrew Rohm, Leah Giles, Marian King, Olivia Hamilton, Tom Tufts, Sarah Borgatti, Betsy Zeldin, Holly Antolini

Absent:  Sarah Forrester, Sam Perlo-Freeman

Guests:   Yvette Verdieu, Jane Hirschi, J.T. Kittredge


●     Following brief check-in time, Lucas led a text study of the Magnificat as our Spiritual Practice

Food Pantry Update

●     J.T. reviewed the new plan or a once-a-month opening.  The various agencies we work with, such as the Boston Food Bank and Food for Free are okay with this plan.  The food pantry associated with St. Paul’s in Harvard Square will take any food we cannot distribute.

●     The measures of success the food pantry team are considering for the new schedule are that it serves enough people to be worth the effort—they are hoping for 50 to 60 households; and that it is sustainable—that volunteers have the energy to keep going.

●     The food pantry team plans to continue for at least 3 months, to give the community time to adapt to the new schedule.

Life Together Fellow Application

●     Holly presented the application she filed for our church to host a Life Together fellow to help us discern the future of our food ministry.

Sanctuary Church Proposal

●     Jane and Yvette presented the Sanctuary Church proposal put forward by the Anti-Oppression Team.  This proposal comes out of a conversation with Britta and then sanctuary church training held at the cathedral.  We plan to support congregations that are housing undocumented immigrants, but not house them ourselves because we have inadequate facilities.

●     The Anti-Oppression Team will take the lead on organizing the congregation in following through with our commitments. 

●     The Anti-Oppression Team is discerning which “level 1” congregations we will be working with, based on our capabilities and on which other groups are already supporting the various level 1 congregations.

●     Olivia moved that the vestry accept the proposal put forth by the Anti-Oppression Team which commits our church to the Sanctuary Network as a Sanctuary Support Congregation, with the  Anti-Oppression Team taking the lead in fulfilling our commitments and providing updates to the vestry at least once per quarter.  Lucas seconded.  Approved unanimously.

Vestry Retreat

●     Holly presented the draft agenda for the vestry retreat, to be held at Church of Our Saviour in Arlington on the 24th and 25th of February.

●     Various members of the vestry volunteered to provide food for the retreat.

●     Jules agreed to lead Compline Friday night, Sarah B. to lead Morning Prayer Saturday, and Leah to do a mid-day reading on Saturday.



●     Matthew moved that we enter executive session.  Lucas seconded.  Approved unanimously.

●     Holly presented a redevelopment update.

●     Andrew moved that we exit executive session.  Marian seconded.  Approved unanimously.


Our Whole Lives

●     Jules presented about the sexuality discussion group the 20s and 30s group is holding, using the Our Whole Lives curriculum put out by the UUs and the UCCs. 

●     The church school has plans to use the middle school version of the curriculum with our youth (middle school and up) next year, hopefully in partnership with Christ Church, Harvard Square.



Minutes of January Meeting

●     Lucas moved that we approve the regular and executive session January minutes.  Marian seconded. Approved unanimously.

●     Lucas moved that we make the personnel issue in the January minutes a matter of public record.  Olivia seconded.  Approved unanimously.

Financial Report

●     Lucas presented the financial report.  Because the new budget is not in QuickBooks yet, there is not much to say.

●     January was a strong month for pledge income because people were catching up on their 2016 pledges.

●     We received a card from Mary Beth Mills-Curran thanking us for our scholarship.

●     The investment committee had its first meeting.  It’s composed of Jeff Zinsmeyer, Lisa Hayles, and Lucas, and is considering how to invest our funds, including the interest from Oaktree.  They should have proposals in March or April.

●     Still looking for another counter

Warden’s Report

●     Sylvia reported that everything is going well and there’s not too much to say.

●     Snow removal and stairway cleaning are going well.

●     The carpet in the sacristy was removed because people tripped over it, but a new one was put in.

Rector’s Report

●     Lucas moved that we enter executive session.  Olivia seconded.  Approved unanimously.

●     We discussed a staff matter.

●     Marian moved that we exit executive session.  Lucas seconded.  Approved unanimously.











Assistant Rector’s Report

•    The Church school classes continue to run nicely and teachers continue to do a wonderful job.  I am very grateful.   

●     The parish retreat team is gathering for our first information/strategy meeting on March 12th.  We will be joined by folks from St. Mary’s Dorchester who we will be joining us for the retreat.       

●     The International Sunday/Epiphany youth Liturgy is scheduled for this Sunday 2/26!  Should be a full service of readings in the native language of our St. James’s family, a participatory homily and kids helping out with many activities.   

●     Shrove Tuesday pancake dinner with burning of palms and imposition of ashes on Tuesday 2/28 at our home in Cambridge.   

●     The Pine Village pre-school had to cancel their multi-cultural pot luck in February due to weather but we working on a new date for the spring.

●     We are working on training some new teachers for the pre-school Godly Play class.  We had a teacher training for Godly Play parents the first Sunday of February it was pretty well attended and helpful in getting a few more parents on board.  .   

●     There is a growing team coalescing around the outdoor church sandwich ministry.  I think we have a pretty good team that is committed to this work.  I am looking to pass this organizational piece along to someone. I hope to have this worked out shortly.  

●     The Scouts are doing well.  Scout service to the parish has gone very well this year under the guidance of Michelle Holmes. 

●     The youth are planning the Shrove Tuesday pancake dinner, we have a Kids-4-Peace event scheduled at St. James’s on 3/12, we are working on a Lenten retreat with Christ Church Cambridge for early April, and there is a fellowship event in the works for some time in early April.       

●     Emilee Butler and Gweii Strong-Allen attended the High School retreat up at the BHC camp and reported that they had a nice time.  Very happy they were able to attend this.  

●     Kids-4-Peace convention on April 2nd.

●     We are trying to get our 8th graders and 9th graders interested in the pre-confirmation retreat up at the BHC put on the by the diocese youth leadership academy.

●     St. J families are helping an organize one of the stations of the cross for good Friday and are leading the Maundy Thursday pot-luck dinner effort.      

●     Jules and I are exploring  a partnership with Christ Church Harvard Square to offer a class based on the Our Whole Lives curriculum for youth.    


Submitted by Jules Bertaut


The Rev. Karen Montagno's Sermon for 3 Lent - 3/19/17